I’m in trouble
Hi everyone.
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Life has been getting gradually worse and I feel at desperation point. In summary, my sister died suddenly last year (six months after her husband). They had a 3 year old who I’m legal guardian for and she is the most precious girl ever and I love her dearly.
I’d been sober for years but relapsed after my sister died and very quickly went back to square one. It’s not daily drinking but benders lasting 2-3 weeks at a time. Benders where I’m waking at 3am shaking and getting my first drink.
The reason for my desperation is I had an appointment with my local specialist services yesterday and they’ve put in a safeguarding report for my niece. I’m terrified she’s going to lose me as well and the fear is making me crave more and more.
I wonder if anyone has had any similar experiences or just some advice they can offer.
Thank you