I'm so sorry for the amount of pain you're in. One thing that helped me was to remember that there's nothing so bad that alcohol can't make it worse.
If you get through this, you can start to deal with your feelings and start to make progress in your life. Drinking will only make things worse. We get stuck.
Three days is great! Just take it a day at a time right now. Cry as much as you need to.Hang out here. Would you try AA or another group as well?
Just do whatever you need to in order to stay sober. It might be hard, but you can do it.
Wishing you well.
