Thank you for sharring.I totaly understand,where you are at,been there too.
When i first started recovery,my hub went wild.Even to the point of trying to stop,me,blocking my way out the door.Didnt matter,i was going anyways.To do whatever it takes for my own serenity,regardless,of how another thinks/feels about it all.Yup it was bad at first,dealing with all his trying to stop me,but it would have been alot worse for me,had i not,be willing to go to all,and any lenghts,for my own recovery.Eventually as he was learning my new behaviour of not letting him stop me,he just gave it up.Even the emotional black-mail didnt work.I went regardless...
my prayers are with you.