I saw my addiction therapist today and told her that I didn't have the happiest week. I'm nearing ninety days (probably like some others) and actually feel really irritated/angry. This is probably the most angry that I've felt since getting sober in January.
The addiction therapist said that it's normal for people around 90 days to have the pink cloud and newness of sobriety fade. She said often this is the time that one starts to face some "big tests."
I have to admit that I've been thinking: "Well, now that I'm at ninety days, I can switch to harm reduction." A co-worker who I don't really even know very well but I respect invited me to have a drink. I've been thinking: "Okay, yeah. I'll have a drink with her."
She is also someone who likes to drink and told me that she finds it frustrating that so many people don't drink. So, I guess my need to be a "people pleaser" came into high gear.
I don't actually want to drink and I'm not going to right now. However, I am having these thoughts.