Hey all,
Sophie I'm so glad your scones were a success
and that you're feeling better.
Quitnow congrats on 80+ days
Hi Zig, H379 and everyone else
I'm doing OK right now, glad the workday is over so I can collapse on my couch and watch Queer Eye. I was really struggling this morning. I've been feeling depressed today for no reason I can put my finger on:
Things are going great with my boyfriend, he invited me to a friend's birthday party Friday night and his grandmother's birthday on Saturday, which means we'll probably spend both nights together this weekend.
Things are great at work, I'm finally over my pre/post vacation crunch and have been able to focus more on my supervisory responsibilities, which I was neglecting because I was so busy with my own reports.
Things are great with my friends, I've gotten to see them all in the past week, and I talk to one of my closest friends every day because we work together.
And yet, sometimes I just feel unaccountably down/sad and unmotivated to do anything. I really had to drag myself out of the house this morning. I'm proud of myself that I made it to work, because I seriously considered calling in sick. I didn't get everything done that I would've liked to, but I got some things done, which is a lot better than not going at all.
I don't like this feeling and I'm not used to it. I know that the suggestion might be therapy or medication, but I am really resistant to seeking help. I'm a social worker and I feel like I should have my sh*t together, I am helping others after all. But I also know this feeling isn't rational and I don't really know what else to do about it.
Sorry for the extremely long ramble. I don't really feel like I can talk to anyone in my actual life about this, because I just don't want them to know. I feel like having had to quit drinking is enough of a stigma and i just don't think I can stand to be seen as any more high maintenance than that.
OK, looong post over.