Iris...it sounds like he may be colicky....and, that is really wearing on the parent...very wearing....He can be treated for this, and I think he needs to see the pediatrician...or, at least talk to the pediatrician or the nurses in his office about what to do....
Iris...would you consider to have your son placed in foster care...temporarily...until you can get yourself sorted out on this postpartum situation?.....bein in temporary foster care would not mean that you can't see him....If you would like that...talk to your therapist and ask her to help you accomplish that......she is there to help you.....
We are not going to call you a "bad parent"!!!!!