Iris...it is not "bad" to feel this way. You are probably too young to know about this...but, in the past, when large extended families lived near each other, there was lots of help for new mothers...kits of (usually women) to help with housework chores...to help with baby care and attend to the new mother...it was like a community effort....But, now, in this age...where families are living more distant from each other, and more women work outside the home, this is not so much the case. Now, by necessity, that help and care has to come from those outside of the family structure.... All new mothers need care and support..and you are NOT abnormal, in that respect...it is just that the family system and cultural practices have changed....
I am so glad that you are able to be open about this....we do understand.
Like trailmix said...taking care of your self is the right thing to do, and is best for your baby's welfare, too....you need to take care of your baby's mother.....