Well, it’s been 68 days. I had Tobias an app to figure it out because I’m not even counting anymore. Things still getting worse every day. Ex and kids have moved on and have someone new. I find myself pretty much without any friends. Everyone is busy with their friends and families and wives, kids etc. I have a few people I can text but that’s few and far between. I spend all my time alone except for work. It feels like years have passed now. Really starting to wonder why I would want to live like this. I don’t know how to change it. I’ve gone on all kinds of trips and to events and done new things and even joined a gym and started working out. I’m eating well and feeling and looking great physically.. I try talk to and meet new people. It doesn’t really work. I feel like I’m running out of time.