I've used the excuse of wanting to drink for getting out so many things I can't even remember them all.
I let so many people down. But mostly myself.
I was a bad drunk, and totally unreliable.
This went on at the end of my drinking career. The last ten years.
I hurt my job, my friends and saddest of all to me, my family. Total irresponsibility. I can only hope they can one day forgive me.
I understand where you're coming from. I've been there.
Don't have that first drink and you'll never have to do it again.
You're not alone.