I’m back to day 1 I’m 100% ashamed of myself!!! My first mistake was invited friends over that drink and do drugs I love them as a person but I have to put my sobriety first!! My second mistake was not posting here first for help!!! I take full responsibility for what I done I thought I could handle being around it but wasn’t ready yet.. one bad decision led to another an to be and I’m not sure how I didn’t hurt myself with mixing I’m ashamed to admit this but I did decide to drink take pain pills Xanax smoke pot and ate shrooms all in one night on top of my medication for depression I know that’s unacceptable and not okay and can admit I really screwed up but I’m ready to make positive changes starting with day 1 and staying away from friends and putting sobriety first I’m going to start posting morning and night and when I need support