Hi, I realized I haven’t checked in for a bit. I’m ok. Met with the life coach last night. Got my APRN on the 10th. I did an at home test kit last night that looks for everything in your gut by finding the DNA. I gotta go to FedEx and drop off the kit. I’m hoping for some answers. More money 🙄.

I really dont feel anything surrounding the motorcycle. Yes or no. I don’t really care. It feels like I don’t anyway. I realized, that I think my brain has built up walls, after I stopped drinking, to cut off my emotions because of my crazy anxiety. That’s not good. I’m not happy or sad. I’m kind of ‘blah’ now.

My brother is really like that. My sister and I talk about how there’s just nothing there. I need a really good therapist again. My guy could really get to the emotions. Like I’ve said, he moved his practice to New York City. The more I live with this and let it go, the deeper I’ll get into numbness.

Im feeling off today, yesterday too. Pretty tired. I’ll get back soon.

V🐍