you've mentioned a few times that AA meetings "make" you uncomfortable. can you elaborate a bit?
truly time spent in a treatment facility would be to your benefit. a safe protected time and space away from alcohol, with professionals whose sole mission it is to gift you with tools and techniques to stay sober on the outside. you've mentioned you can' take the time off work, but add up the numbers of days you've missed in the past month, two months, three months.
i suspect there is an element of pride at play here. just remember where you own best efforts are getting you right now. maybe there is another way.......