I think the reason your not having the success you hope for so far is because you are trying to do it on your own. We can’t do it alone, running on self will rarely works in the long term. Saving yourself doesn’t mean going it alone, it means if the way to stop the craving turning into a drink one night is to reach out to someone or post here first so others can talk you down then you do it.
Saving yourself is about doing whatever it takes, even if it means reaching out, making a plan, getting counselling, exercise. That is how you save yourself xx