I too was an at home mom of 2 beautiful
little ones who did the wife and mom routine
day in and day out with the reward of a lovely
glass of wine beginning at 2pm.
All it took was a family member to suggest
a moms night out and off to the races I went
to surround myself with lively folks, music,
dancing etc.
Then one night returning home at 2am I
ran off the road hitting a concrete culvert
which the EMS had to cut me out of the
wreckage spent the next 10 days in the
hospital with my puncture spleen was removed
so I wouldn't bleed to death.
Yep, how many times did I hear from
growing up that anything after midnight
was nothing but trouble. Here I thought
I had control over my drinking and my
responsibilities as a parent and yet my
addiction took over every inch of my being.
Did I learn from that lesson. No. That accident
was in Feb 1990. It took a few months to heal
quite nicely with no alcohol, and just pain meds.
When I didn't need the meds. anymore and
felt the waters was safe to go back in to drink
a nice glass of wine...…
Well, I actually picked up right where I left
off when I had my accident in Feb. Now, Im
in Aug. 1990 and right back to the lime lights
of my favorite club, music, alcohol, folks
that love to drink like me.
Yep, I returned home safely at 2am, only to
another argument and that was all needed
to take a handful f left over pain meds downed
with alcohol to make a decision to leave this
world never thinking of the consequences of
my sickness, illness, addiction.
The next morning my 2 little ones couldn't
wake me up. It took hearing the phone ringing
next to my bed which to this day could only
be my Higher Power alerting me to wake up
and answer it.
He wasn't thru with me yet and it wasn't my
time to exit this life. So thru the fog and numbness
I gathered myself, threw up all that was in my
system figuring all would blow ever. Needless to
say, family was alerted and they pulled their
resources together and summoned a court ordered
intervention where officers took me in to a hospital
for evaluation.
I passed their mind test and was told all I
had was an alcohol drinking problem and
would be kept at this hospital for 2 weeks
to be taught about my addiction and given
a program of recovery taught to me.
At 2 weeks I wasn't ready to go back to
my family inviroment as they wanted to
send me out of state longer away from my
family. Then with pleading to let me remain
where I was, id do whatever was necessary
to complete a 28 day stay with a 6 week out
patient aftercare program upon my release.
I listened, learned, absorbed and applied
the knowledge and program of recovery
on a continuous bases, following suggestion
all to the best of my human ability each day
moving forward for the past 28 yrs.
Those 28 days helped me begin to lay
down a strong solid foundation to live
my life upon and become the best, healthiest
person I could possibly be incorporating
those important tools and knowledge taught
to me from the very beginning.
Today, im retired, remarried, healthy, happy,
honest and still living my program of recovery
continuously and extremely proud of the
2 little ones I help raise into healthy, happy
adults raising families of their own.
With the help and guidance of my Higher Power
and the program of AA I can pass on my own ESH -
experiences, strengths and hopes with others
just as sooooo many have done for me over the
yrs. with gratitude and gratefulness.
