Stick with it Trevor. 45 days is still early days and those are tough. Your brain chemicals are still messed up. What is worse is drinking and starting over again. Each withdrawal got worse and worse for me. Do whatever it takes, post on here constantly, go for a walk, read a book, eat a bite of something sweet (ice cream saved me!) , drink some water. AVRT method helped me also. All alcohol wants is to kill you, dont forget that. Hang in there.