Sky,
In hindsight, I drank because I was uneducated about booze and addicted. I am no longer uneducated or physically addicted.
Mentally , I crave at some point usually daily. It is tough sometimes, but so is life.
I drank to get drunk around 5 years old. I figure I was addicted after the first buzz. I quit at 50.
I tried to quit because i was trying to get in amazing shape. Then the i found myself binging a few times a month. That destroyed me and caused ptsd.
From the 45 years of moderate to heavy drinking I was mentally damaged and physically weak. Both are better by 10x now.
I will never drink again. God help me.
Thanks.