Just for clarity I don't say I am not an alcoholic as I am denying that to be true. What I mean is alcohol is just one of the addictive solutions I have deployed in my life to be able to deal. When I went to rehab I thought it was just alcohol that was my problem, but after 2 months of daily counselling and looking back and talking through my whole life it became clear that addictive behaviours and thinking were always a part of me from early on. It was a revalation to me but vital for my recovery to accept it and be able to start to heal. x