I tried to take my own life at 15 so was unable to deal early on in life. I am an addict, not an alcoholic per say. When I was younger I was addicted to toxic co-dependent relationships, food, smoking weed, impulse buying expensive items, amphetamine and mdma. All at different times and at different depths.
In it's simplist form an addict is someone that looks for an external solution to fix an internal problem and I had been doing it all my life in some way or another.
When did I not need to do this...when I was a child and didn't know anything about the world really, didn't have adult pressure, didn't have to worry about bills and putting food on the table. x