I have to go through with the wedding
where does it say that..??
is there a book that's written down in..?
did someone come and tell you that you have to get married to this guy..??
who says you have to go through with this wedding..?
I think you need to stop and look at what your telling yourself...
and why you are willing to put up with this type of behavior towards yourself..?
To me... your problem isn't the drunk in your life...
it's why you would even entertain attaching yourself to a person who is so far gone.
and if he's drinking like you say...
he's gone.
Better start examining your thoughts and taking a honest reading on them.
Sounds to me like your looking to create a nice little chaos nest for yourself ... and you know this... but that for some reason.. your totally ignoring what's staring you in the face.
Praying for clarity of sight and thought for you.