Originally Posted by
brighterday1234 
The great news is you never need to experience another blackout ever again in your life. All you have to do is not take the first drink. One is too many and 1000000 never enough.
My alcoholism has given me a life I never would have experienced unless I was an alcoholic. Thus I’m grateful to be an alcoholic.
The life in recovery is a wonderful life and I experience the peace of mind and serenity I sought but never managed to achieve from alcohol and drugs.
your story is similar to mine; commit to recovery and there is a great way of living available with only hope and optimism instead of the despair of living as an active alcoholic.
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Thanks so much. Even if the signs of the damage of alcohol are not a visible to some, as I don't drink every day. But your post is so true, the ONLY way to GUARANTEE that I will not blackout again is to not take the first drink.
I have spent the last few days really depressed and suffering badly with anxiety. I know the drugs have me down but also the fact that I am here again when I was doing well has me down too.
The fact that I really hurt myself again from a blackout is scary and upsetting and it does make me feel a bit hopeless as I have tried to quit after each blackout I've had pretty much. I am taking the day off work today as I really don't feel up to it. I just feel completely swamped by responsibilities, college, work, people, and my head still hurts.
But going on here certainly helps. I know I just need to relax today as going into work an anxious mess wouldn't help anyone.