Originally Posted by
AmbyMarie 
[left]Im at 9 months sober and wish I could be happier, but I’m terrified that I have ruined my liver and doomed to die!
Ah, health anxiety.
I can really sympathize with this. I actually did have liver pains (and back pain) while in the throws of my addiction -- I
aggressively avoided seeing a doctor while I was drinking for fear of what they would tell me.
Unfortunately I was also ignoring symptoms of active and undiagnosed Crohn's disease and UC (I chalked up all the symptoms to alcohol abuse) and ended up in the hospital for a week...
Here's what I do know. Health anxiety can be paralyzing and it was the #1 weapon of my AV to get me to "drink off" that anxiety and push it down.
But when you really think about it,
that makes no sense 
. If you see a doctor, tell them you're trying to quit drinking and want to live a sober life -- but would like a workup for peace of mind -- they will help you get on track.
And you'll be able to silence some of that health anxiety. If it continues -- a counselor can help as well.
Totally can relate, though. Glad you posted about it!
Edit: Oh, btw, even with those pains I had a recent workup and ultrasound of my stomach -- my liver and all internal organs were 100 percent normal. Same with blood pressure, nervous system, etc. -- and I'm in Crohns remission. Your body is resilient, but you've got to cut off the poison and take the step of getting well
.