will...not drinking that's a change.
It's a big change actually.
I can't imagin not drinking for the rest of my life...but I can do it today.
Will...then it's like this.
I can't imagin making changes for the rest of my life
but i can do it just for today.
The steps helps in process
Mmmm example...I had to give up drinking becuase I got sick of it.
Once I sobered up and my mind gets clearer , I have brain farts.
I use what i've learnd...I start giving up insanity, anger, self pity
or other self defeating/negative habits (defects of charecter).
THe same principle alppies...I love alcohol
Mmmmm....I love the insanities too !!!
Oh..trust me you won't forget who you are. trust me on this one.lol
Will...why would you want things to be like it was...wasn't it hell ?
My spiritual advisor passed this on to me.
She drew a circle about 6" in dia, then she put a dot inside the circle.
Then she said...."The dot are your defects(fear), the circle is you"
"you are so much greater than your defects"
"Stop fucusing on the bad stuff"
Just like fears...yes ??? It's an illusion, but if I focus on it,
It becomes a monster. Then we forget who we really are.
she also told me that I must not deny my defect, it's a part of me.
I'm just much, much greater than that.
So...did I really knew who I was, by living and thinking within the
dot (fear/ego) all those years ???
Recovery is ozsome!!!
It's a mind (ego) blower.
