Dee's post is pretty spot on.
I lost my mom the day after Christmas, and saying goodbye to her was the hardest thing I've ever done. My dad died almost nine years ago, and I don't know if this was harder because it was my second parent. Anyway, since then I have spent a lot more time than I would like thinking about death, however, it has also caused me to want to appreciate and savor every day.
You mentioned you're losing your steam in sobriety, I wonder if you can flip your recovery to focus on gratitude, I find it really helpful.
Each day I go for a walk, and I appreciate all of the beatiful things nature has to offer, I watch my kids participate in sports, and savor the craziness of trying to get from one acitivty to the next, because I know that won't last forever, I log into SR and look forward to catching up with the many friends I've met on here, and offering support for someone who may be struggling.
I'm glad you're working with your counselor, I'm also glad you posted.