Just do it. Quit! Choose Life. Alcohol is poison. It will eat you up alive. Don't you want to be around in 10 yr, 20 yrs to see your family? Quit. It is ok that you relapsed. Get up, dust yourself off and do it again. Sober up, go thru detox, Get some good food in you, get some good sleep, then get a new job. A new beginning. Just do it!