I know how you feel. I was always an evening drinker, but would go to work the next day. Every day at work I would say "okay, today is the day I'll go straight home, and not stop at the liquor store"....and then somehow I'd end up at the liquor store. I dreaded the cold sweats withdrawal so much that I knew I "had" to drink to avoid it. I finally dealt with it, and you can to. Stay strong!