It sounds like you've been through a lot and I'm glad you are here. Every day sober is an achievement, and 367 days sober out of 393 is a heck of a lot more sober days than I had in my last year of drinking.
This is a great place, with lots of great people and support. Poke around, read, lurk, share, whatever helps you. A big metaphorical hug and lots of support sent your way.