Come to think of it, I don't know how much I really LIKE alcohol as much as I have used it to avoid what was going on and what I had to get to in my life.
I wasn't even very fun, entertaining or interesting...even to drunk people. ESPECIALLY to drunk people.
I had a phase where I went to the local bar and I never felt like I fit in. I don't think anyone else thought I did, either.
I have been destroying myself over something I don't even like that much or am not even that "good" at.
I'm sure a shrink would have a field day with all that.