A little nervous
I am really nervous about being here. I realize that I have a serious problem and feel empty and helpless. My husband was taunting me the other night (we were both drinking) and I went off on him physically. I know this is horrible and I don't know what to do. We have children and I feel like a terrible mother. Every time it seems like we can get to a "moderate" use it is never like that. I know this sounds horrific and I don't need posts saying that I am nuts or whatever. I need to move past this and get healthy. It doesn't help he was calling me a who*re about 20 times that whole weekend. Please advise, thanks.