Viper am sorry to hear you arent feeming your best and that the place you are at isn't living up to your expectations . However you haven't failed. Far from it! You have succeed in just making that decision to do something and go for it! I mean, that is jist the opposite of failure! I hope it turns around for you.
How amazing that far from being sober which is an achievement in itself, you have zero desire to drink. Despite feeling pants and being somewhere that isn't what you were expecting and beong surrounded by drinking places is big man! I mean, if nothing else this trip would have been worth it just to find that out!!!
Look after yourself, get well, put it out there to the universe and I believe you will end up exactly where you are meant to be. Keep in touch!!