I'm on day 17 too and the thought that I can be a "social drinker" is creeping back. All I know is that I never had nor do I like to have one drink. Once I take a sip, I want to drink for the whole night and I don't care about the consequences because alcohol is a drug that is telling me that I'm acting fine. However, to everyone else it is obvious that I'm either getting louder or doing something is stupid because I'm drunk. Also, if I drink at a social gathering, then I'm going to start rationalizing. Then, what was supposed to be one drink will turn into months of drinking again. I can't risk that anymore. So, I'd rather miss out on the drinking.