Mera,
I'm so sorry, as a mom, I know how much work goes into all that preparation for the holidays, and we absolutely push ourselves to the brink of insanity.
It seems like you're struggling with drinking every now and then again. Did your psychologist have any suggestions to help you with this?
When do you need to go back to court for custody? When is your test for your license? I know those are both stressful events, so maybe having a plan in place to deal with that stress would be helpful.
You're a good mom Mera, I know you will get back on track with sobriety, and do what you need to for you and your boys. Don't forget we are always here for you as well.
Sending lots of love and hugs your way.
❤️Delilah