Sometimes we spend so much time trying to rescue someone else that we fail to realize that in the process we are losing ourselves. One day you wake up totally defeated and depleted and wonder what the hell happened.
Passion, you nailed me on the first line. That's exactly how it was when I tried to save my addicted son. I don't even know when I reached the point where I had totally lost myself, where I no longer recognized "that stranger called me", and when I finally gave up in despair I wish I had known then that it was a huge turning point for me and that letting go was all I had ever needed to do all along.
Thank you for this, for all you have given to this forum over the years. And Happy New Year dear friend.
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