It's ok to feel sad emotional, Hoot.
In early sobriety my emotions were all over the place.
I had been numbing them for so long that when they finally emerged I had no idea what to do about it.
Emotions are not bad or good, they are just telling us something, calling attention to what should be taken care of.
You don't have to feel any particular way - just be in the moment.
It gets better.