Originally Posted by
OtterIsland 
Wow....just wow. Have I ever spoken to a counselor?? Of course I have, ever since 2010!! And of course alcohol is the worst thing for me and I should get rid of it....but nothing shall take its place. Nothing can dull the feelings more or better....
I really am in a bad place. ��. Too bad for me.
I think if you went back and read some of your posts leading up to the holidays, you'll see that you were a lot happier when you were sober. I'm sorry you are in a bad place, but alcohol put you there whether you realize it or not. Alcohol may dull your feelings temporarily but of course they will all still be there when you sober up, and they will be worse than before you drank. It's a fantastic lie that addiction tries to tell you...don't listen to it.
I have no knowledge of your past, my question about therapy was one asked in earnest. I have sought help via therapy myself and it was beneficial.