trailmix

Of course it's confusing, you are saying you trust him - but you don't trust him with this.

You are trying to be logical about the illogical. Here is this man that you love, that you married and have children with. He loves you and he loves his children.

You went on a business trip and he got black out drunk while he was supposed to be caring for the children he loves.

There is nothing "normal" about that, there is nothing logical about that, once you stop trying to put this in some kind of logical, normal frame your mind can take a rest and stop struggling with it.

It is a fact. So you go forward with the facts you have and you do the next right thing.

I'm sure there is guilt involved as well, in relation to him but think of it this way, you aren't only protecting them, an offshoot is you are protecting him too. What if something happens and he is black out drunk, he will never forgive himself.

Above all, remember, he chose to drink while caring for the children. He didn't call a family member to come over and watch them, he didn't call a baby sitter.