It shouldn't matter really b/c the bottom line is, it's over. I don't want to be with an addict. I don't even want to be with an addict in recovery. And yet here I am, still feeling depressed about how he treated me. I get annoyed with myself about it really. Ugh.
Gemini, you've got the hang of it, you know what you need to do and you are doing it to the best of your ability...but it takes time to heal.
I think that phone call did rip open the wound, and of course the healing has been set back...but this is a set back, not a failure, and a part of you finding your way back to happiness and a life without addiction.
Keep doing the best you can, read the sticky posts because there is a lot of good information there that I know helped me "see" things more clearly.
We're walking this path with you, and holding our lights until you can find your own.
Hugs