My first sober day was December 12, 2017. So I spent the twelve days of Xmas sober last year and (miracle) I'm spending them sober this year. It was bizarre learning to live my live not trashed because I'd been drinking since I was a kid. I'm a major creature of habit and the habit of drinking was one that nearly took me down multiple times.
What was so awesome about actually spending the holidays sober and birthed this tender, tiny hope in me was that I remembered everything and the shame of my addiction eased up just a fraction. Don't get me wrong, I brutalized myself in my thoughts about a million times in those early days and for me, that part didn't ease up for about ten months.
But it's possible, and it's hard, and it's wonderful. Sending you mountains of support all wrapped up in pretty holiday bows.