i won't talk about my specifics in this one. Thanks for closing the last one.

Im having such a hard time with my eating disorder since coming back from that trip. It's all day, every day anymore. It makes me sad, because I had actually made a decent amount of progress. I'm on a liquid diet so I don't purge right now. The first time I typed it, it autocorrected to "liquor." No- I haven't drank over it, but it's safe to say this is an ED relapse.

I dont want to seek seek treatment because I don't want to get better. I want to lose the weight.