I'm sorry things are not great at the moment Hope. Try not to panic tho - the hospital would not have released you if they felt you were in any danger, surely?
Having said that, this has to be your turning point yeah? You might not be so lucky where there to be a next time.
I can't remember what you've tried for your recovery besides SR but I'd put everything on the table now - nothing is too much effort.
AA or SMART or Lifering, doctors, counsellor, inpatient or outpatient rehab - consider it all.
you can absolutely turn things around from here - and you're not alone
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