Originally Posted by
lessgravity 
Even the thought of the drunk itself, at this point, that losing of control, that dropping the reins on the life I now feel in control of, is just plainly repellent to me.
^ This. A house full of booze and the only thought I have when I look at it is how awful it would be to drink some and lose that complete control I've had for the past 4-5 months. The thought of being tipsy doesn't appeal to me let alone getting hammered.