Hi Guener and all.
I can really relate to that too, have to be careful of things not becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy by thinking things will always happen at a certain stage of sobriety or even life in general. Last December I went on 'auto-pilot' (I've learnt since that this is called
vertigo in Rational Recovery) and didn't have the tools to resist.
In 7 hours I went from 6+ months of sobriety to being seriously ill and vomiting blood
and being too ill to enjoy Christmas food. Even with that mind my AV is now rearing it's ugly little head, earlier whilst browsing Amazon I clicked on a bourbon I used to like, I didn't search for it but was in the christmas gift offers link. When I first saw it I try to ignore but my AV said 'scroll back and have a look, read the reviews, there's no harm in looking'. And I did and I got anxious and sweaty doing it, crazy!
Feeling a bit better now I've shared that.
My best wishes to all
John