I really dont know if I can do this...please help!!
Well, I am in a really bad place right now...meetings dont work for me...I dont know what else to do. I have been on a binge for 6-7 days now...really bad..I even got out the vodka this morning just to calm my nerves. Oh my, this is bad...I usually have my limits...only drink beer...and well shots at the bar...but I hate hard alcohol, and never have had the urge to drink it...I just dont know...well I know I have to stop this...I had a nose bleed this morning..not sure if that is related to drinking, but I never get noselbeeds...anyways, I think I am just going to go to sleep for a bit and hopefully feel a bit better when I wake up...but last night I had this horrible, scary dream....it was bad...maybe it is a sign...I have to stop this drinking...just not sure how....I just feel so at the bottom..no one really seems to understand...I cant live like this anymore. Need some advice!! thanks