Post-Court Date Yuck
Today I saw my ex-AH in court. The degree to which alcohol has stolen everything that was good in his life and has shattered him completely was more evident than ever. It is so incredibly painful to see him this way.
He's turned into a really awful person - to me, and often to my kids. I have so much anger and worry about having to share my kids with him- that it amazes me that I feel so much sadness towards him in his current condition.
Just when I think I've reached a point where I have broken the ties of empathy and am able to compartmentalize and focus only on what is best for my kids, the grief of his life lost to addiction slaps me in the face.
Although I continue to make progress towards distancing myself and breaking old ties, today this feels like an impossible situation. Yuck.