Thanks for sharing your story.
Speaking of guilt, now my AH is now sending me texts trying to get a reaction from me. However I am proud of myself as I am staying strong and not responding. I already feel enough guilt, do not need him to add on to it. Actually it just makes me more resolved in my decision to leave. Why should I stay with someone who makes me feel bad about myself?
Im sorry your XAH never sought help but I am happy to hear that you are out of the relationship. Take care of yourself.
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Michsm 
Oh the guilt! I know it all too well and never understood it. My XAH never went to rehab or stopped drinking..he is a functional alcoholic so he never thought he had a problem. After 10 years of it, I divorced him and felt and still feel guilty about it. I don’t know why and can’t explain it. Good luck on your journey. It has been six months since I left and still have good and bad days. Eventhough, I felt tortured in our marriage by emotional abuse and loneliness, it is tough but I am not looking back.