Happy Thanksgiving!
Congratulations on your sobriety. I have found an ebb and flow to emotions that through prayer, meditation and guidance from Higher Power/Great Spirit are being transformed.
I'm not alcoholic. I did have past trauma that's healing quickly. God works through many people, and also through connections in nature. Learning to trust our healthy instincts helps them strengthen. One day at a time.
Here's a thread I posted last May, about bulletproof coffee and meditation:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...2-day-1-a.html
What you're experiencing seems very normal.
Take what you like and leave the rest.
Namaste