My life with drinking is like a rollercoaster. I was so banged up this morning I had to call out of work , I do in fact have a cold in my defense . I went 23 days recently without a drink or drugs and I just choked one evening and I was doing so well . My wife hates when I drink , my family hates me drunk but hates me sober lol ( half joke ) but I’m really starting to get worried about my body . I have been a drinker for 13 years now ... I mainly drink to manage my panic attack’s and boredom , I don’t even know if I have a question but I just needed to vent . Thanks everyone