Hi sweet good to see you posting but sorry to hear you are drinking.
so many of your posts are about you getting involved in other people's drama and what they are doing or might do or what they are thinking.
an old phrase helps me hugely at times when I feel pulled into other people's drama. I can't control what others say or do only what I do and how I react to it.
instead of focusing on others maybe just look at yourself and what you can do to rebuild your life. We can only start to do that when we stop drinking though.