Wasn't your last post about the fact that you were worried regarding your teenage daughters substance abuse? Honestly Suite, like most here I've followed your story for a long time. You've had a lot to deal with, both through the random chances of life and through your own self-inflicted decisions. But you just keep drinking and drinking. Other than using this site as a means of discussing your life's problems which I know are serious and I feel for you, you just don't seem to ever commit to what you really need to do which is stop drinking.