Ok...I have no idea whats going on at all...but you're not going to change anything by drinking sweetichick.
You're in dire straights with your health, you're in a perilous financial position and a few days you agreed you needed to try and be a role model for your daughter.
Noone said any of that would be easy - its not - but you need to have other options to work through before you go for the booze sweetichick...
AA meetings, posting here..phone a friend....
You're worth the effort - it really is time to break out the elbow grease.
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