Losenit...It gets worse will we are living with it. We hardly notice the progression....we just keep on developing more and more ways to cope. I posted this a while back.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...highlight=frog
My suggestion would be to get some help for yourself...Al Anon, counceling, education about the family disease of alcoholism...and get yourself in a sound state of mind so you can make a decision about what you want to do with your tomorrows.
((((Hugs))))